Turning 40 was not how I thought it would be….

Well, it’s finally here, I’ve hit the big 40! Looking back I thought I would be in a different place in life when I reached 40. But I guess life had other plans for me. I thought I’d still be married, have a baby, and living life to the fullest. I’m single ( well in a relationship with the guy for the last 5 years, with no intentions of marrying him ), no children ( although I did try for a long time when I was married and could never conceive a baby ) but I do have 3 precious babies: my dogs Bullet, Maggie May, and Nola. Maybe there was a reason for life to change so abruptly as it did. I am still searching for that reason, as it’s been almost 7 years my marriage fell apart and my life totally changed. Since then I have met some wonderful people and became closer to my family, especially my mom who has been a constant arm of support for me in the last 7 years since I moved back to Nola. Maybe I was given the storybook love from my ex husband and formed a greater bond between my mom and brothers after my divorce. It’s funny, growing up my parents always said you can’t count on anyone but your family and this is so true. I love my family more and more, I understand now what my parents always said about family. It has been a tough year for me, some points were very low and especially since I have been sick, my family has been so supportive. Maybe turning 40 will mean better choices and better opportunities for me. Whatever it may be, I am ready to take on the challenge, I just want to be happy, fall in love with someone who will make me happy and love me for me. I do have a lot to be thankful for, so I will look forward for what life has to throw at me. Happy 40th Birthday to me!